I don't have either one and I have no plants of acquiring either one regarding myself.
Why, you ask. Because I have not developed acceptance nor tolerance of myself after having had an unexplained cancer diagnosis a few years ago and I never will, and in my brain, acceptance/tolerance means I lose and cancer wins.
Why, you ask. Because I have not developed acceptance nor tolerance of myself after having had an unexplained cancer diagnosis a few years ago and I never will, and in my brain, acceptance/tolerance means I lose and cancer wins.
As simplistic as that may seem to most people, some people just do not fucking get it and I don't know why.
It used to piss me off beyond belief when people would talk about "fighting" cancer.
What the ever loving fuck all is there to fight, exactly? You can't fucking fight something you have no control over, you can't see it, you can't put on boxing gloves and beat the hell out of it. Let someone try to her my family or myself and I can try to hurt them to put a stop to it. Let a stupid disease try to, and well, see what I'm getting at here? I have no control over that.
Sometimes, trying to "fight" something makes it worse. So doesn't it stand to reason that being more bendy and trying to go along with whatever rather than "fighting" it make more sense? Wouldn't that be better for someone's mental and emotional state?
Logic would dictate that saying "This is what's going on, it's beyond my control, beyond my fixing, so I will just try to manage." is the best way to cope with something. I wish someone had said that sort of thing to me when I wad diagnosed.
Instead, I got stuck with stupid doctors telling me I should be drugged and in therapy like I had done something wrong when I hadn't, which is NOT the way to deal with some patients, namely a patient like me. Perhaps patients should be told that talking with someone could be helpful and that there will be tons of stress because of the lack of control over the diagnosis and all the fucking hell that follows.
No, I didn't go through the torture and abuse of cancer drugged and in therapy. Why should I have had to be drugged and in therapy for what was being done to me? I shouldn't have. Yes, I'm mean about it, no, I don't give a fuck about that since I'm mean and evil and yes, I'm aware that my logic about this is rather warped, but there you have it.
My warped logic says no acceptance and no tolerance for myself because that means cancer wins.
As for other people, it's not my business unless they ask. Then I share my warped, skewed, and fucked up perspective about whatever, be it the vile cancer industry, what's done to people like me, being exposed to legalized torture and abuse, why the fuck all I wouldn't want reconstructive surgery even if it was an option but it's not because of what the surgeon did to me, and whatever else topics come up for discussion.
Because I'm helpful, evil, and mean that way. Just saying.
It used to piss me off beyond belief when people would talk about "fighting" cancer.
What the ever loving fuck all is there to fight, exactly? You can't fucking fight something you have no control over, you can't see it, you can't put on boxing gloves and beat the hell out of it. Let someone try to her my family or myself and I can try to hurt them to put a stop to it. Let a stupid disease try to, and well, see what I'm getting at here? I have no control over that.
Sometimes, trying to "fight" something makes it worse. So doesn't it stand to reason that being more bendy and trying to go along with whatever rather than "fighting" it make more sense? Wouldn't that be better for someone's mental and emotional state?
Logic would dictate that saying "This is what's going on, it's beyond my control, beyond my fixing, so I will just try to manage." is the best way to cope with something. I wish someone had said that sort of thing to me when I wad diagnosed.
Instead, I got stuck with stupid doctors telling me I should be drugged and in therapy like I had done something wrong when I hadn't, which is NOT the way to deal with some patients, namely a patient like me. Perhaps patients should be told that talking with someone could be helpful and that there will be tons of stress because of the lack of control over the diagnosis and all the fucking hell that follows.
No, I didn't go through the torture and abuse of cancer drugged and in therapy. Why should I have had to be drugged and in therapy for what was being done to me? I shouldn't have. Yes, I'm mean about it, no, I don't give a fuck about that since I'm mean and evil and yes, I'm aware that my logic about this is rather warped, but there you have it.
My warped logic says no acceptance and no tolerance for myself because that means cancer wins.
As for other people, it's not my business unless they ask. Then I share my warped, skewed, and fucked up perspective about whatever, be it the vile cancer industry, what's done to people like me, being exposed to legalized torture and abuse, why the fuck all I wouldn't want reconstructive surgery even if it was an option but it's not because of what the surgeon did to me, and whatever else topics come up for discussion.
Because I'm helpful, evil, and mean that way. Just saying.
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